Im not alone

Sometimes You think You'll Be Find by Yourself
Cause a Dream is a Wish You Make all alone
Its Easy to Feel Like You Dont Need Help
But Its Harder To Walk On Your Own

You'll Change
Inside
When You
Realize
The World Comes To Life
and Everythings Alright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty Of All
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend

Someone Who knows When Your Lost and Your Scared
There through The Highs and The Lows
Someone You Can Count On, Someone Who Cares
Besides You Where Ever You Go

And When The Hope Crashes Down
Shattering To The Ground
You'll, You'll Feel All Alone
When You Dont Know Which Way To Go
And There's No Such Leading You On
You're Not Alone

Am I Alone???

I get a funny feeling,
it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide.

My doctor calls it depression,
my dad says it's just me.
But the thoughts and feelings,
no one will ever be able to see.

Some say I'm psycho,
some say I'm just weird.
It's like I'm a different person,
and the old me just disappeared.

I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.

I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day...

Heh...

Life now sucks... I need 2 blaja every freaking night!! Wat a waste.. Its not like Im gonna be pandai just like that.. But I need a new bf now.. Im useless without one.. But.. I dot think there is the perfect guy.. i want dis type of guy.. But.. u think.. ade ke kat MALAYSIA.. I dont think so.. TApi kalau ade.. It would be a BLESSING!!

People people people..

Ermmm.. I'm really sorry for not writing in days.. It's just.. internet buat hal.. Sooo.. My peperiksaan pertengahan tahun really sucks.. My grade fell like crazy..Mase dulu I got 5A 2b 1C.. But for this periksa.. I got 2B 2C 4E... and like those retards are really damn angry.. I'm stupid.. just face it man.. They just say i'm malas..They dont want to accept that i'm stupid because i'm staying with them.. they are responsible 4 me.. So PADAN MUKE!!

The moonlight's shining off your tears,
As you bleed out your own worst fears,
So tonight when you start to cry,
Whisper the cuttlers' lullaby.

Hushabye baby,you're almost dead,
You don't have a pulse and your pillow is red,
Your family hates you, & your friends let you bleed,
Sleep thight with a knife, cause that it's all that you need

Rockabye baby, broken and scarred,
You didn't know that life would be so hard,
Time to end the pain that you hid so well,
And down will come, straight back to hell.

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i was laying with the roaches
singing to the moon
the x's over my eyes
told the story of my life.
i was crying with my cat
hanging on my bed like a bat.
i start to realize my eyes turn dark
and all my life was merely a joke
somehow, someway i'll die and come back

WTF!!!

Fuck Hafiz!! Wat's fucking wrong wit him! Me and Nasha nk tgk wayang pun susah... & those 'RETARDS' ( well you know who they are ) think I went dating. I don't fucking date!! Dating is fucking lame.. i just went out wit some friends for gods sake. Wat's fucking wrong with that. I want freedom!! I don't want to stay at home doing nothing. I want to go out and do something.. then eating sleeping and daydream all day.. Lots of kids are 'bebas' but not me.. Those retards are fucking overprotective!!! I need to make mistakes and learn from it... You know.. Taking chances.. I don't need somebody telling me what to do.. And whats right or wrong.. I know the freaking difference man!! I so damn fed up of people telling me to be someone else.. I am who I I am ... And you cant do anything about it.. So just fucking accept it!! I know I'm living under your roof but believe in me.. just believe me... Man... I wish I'm dead right now..But no... I'm not dead... I'm fucking alive!!! I don't know why.. But in my mind the word suicide is always there.. I know it's a bad thing. But life makes me feel that way.. Suicide.. Suicide.. Suicide !!! Uggghhhh... If Muhammad Hafiz bin Mohd. Norbi is reading this.. I just want to say just this..

GO TO HELL YOU SON OF A BITCH!!