Heh...

Life now sucks... I need 2 blaja every freaking night!! Wat a waste.. Its not like Im gonna be pandai just like that.. But I need a new bf now.. Im useless without one.. But.. I dot think there is the perfect guy.. i want dis type of guy.. But.. u think.. ade ke kat MALAYSIA.. I dont think so.. TApi kalau ade.. It would be a BLESSING!!

People people people..

Ermmm.. I'm really sorry for not writing in days.. It's just.. internet buat hal.. Sooo.. My peperiksaan pertengahan tahun really sucks.. My grade fell like crazy..Mase dulu I got 5A 2b 1C.. But for this periksa.. I got 2B 2C 4E... and like those retards are really damn angry.. I'm stupid.. just face it man.. They just say i'm malas..They dont want to accept that i'm stupid because i'm staying with them.. they are responsible 4 me.. So PADAN MUKE!!

The moonlight's shining off your tears,
As you bleed out your own worst fears,
So tonight when you start to cry,
Whisper the cuttlers' lullaby.

Hushabye baby,you're almost dead,
You don't have a pulse and your pillow is red,
Your family hates you, & your friends let you bleed,
Sleep thight with a knife, cause that it's all that you need

Rockabye baby, broken and scarred,
You didn't know that life would be so hard,
Time to end the pain that you hid so well,
And down will come, straight back to hell.

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i was laying with the roaches
singing to the moon
the x's over my eyes
told the story of my life.
i was crying with my cat
hanging on my bed like a bat.
i start to realize my eyes turn dark
and all my life was merely a joke
somehow, someway i'll die and come back

WTF!!!

Fuck Hafiz!! Wat's fucking wrong wit him! Me and Nasha nk tgk wayang pun susah... & those 'RETARDS' ( well you know who they are ) think I went dating. I don't fucking date!! Dating is fucking lame.. i just went out wit some friends for gods sake. Wat's fucking wrong with that. I want freedom!! I don't want to stay at home doing nothing. I want to go out and do something.. then eating sleeping and daydream all day.. Lots of kids are 'bebas' but not me.. Those retards are fucking overprotective!!! I need to make mistakes and learn from it... You know.. Taking chances.. I don't need somebody telling me what to do.. And whats right or wrong.. I know the freaking difference man!! I so damn fed up of people telling me to be someone else.. I am who I I am ... And you cant do anything about it.. So just fucking accept it!! I know I'm living under your roof but believe in me.. just believe me... Man... I wish I'm dead right now..But no... I'm not dead... I'm fucking alive!!! I don't know why.. But in my mind the word suicide is always there.. I know it's a bad thing. But life makes me feel that way.. Suicide.. Suicide.. Suicide !!! Uggghhhh... If Muhammad Hafiz bin Mohd. Norbi is reading this.. I just want to say just this..

GO TO HELL YOU SON OF A BITCH!!

Shit Man!!

Wat's up with them.. U don't go around invading people's stuff.. I'm a teenager for god's sake.. They are RETARDS!! Guess who I'm talking about.... Duh.. My Aunt.. (and my uncle but not so much)...
Shit... uuuuugggghhhh... why am I living with those creeps.. I really want to move.. but.. I fucking cant.. Those RETARDS wont let me.. This is a free country man.. Sometimes I can see it in their eyes that they hate me.. Just throw me out then.. I have tons of aunt's and uncle's but unfortunately i have to live with these 2.. Okay..Maybe I should just chill... WTF!!! No I cant.. Living with them is like hell... I know they give me food, clothes, and other stuff... but i just cant.. I'm to upset to write.. Out..

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Okay.... 2 tell u the truth... I don't really(hate) like my aunt and uncle... Well it turns out I don't like anything.. Pfft.. They like have 3 kids... The oldest Hafiz (fiz) ,14 .... Then Harith (ayet) ,9... The last one Hakimi (kimi) ,4.... I've notice that my aunt and uncle have 'anak kesayangan' 4 example..
my uncle...Hafiz.... My aunt.. kimi..Wat about Ayet??? Xde.. kesian2.... BTW.. I'm closest to ayet..
<<<<<<<< Here's a pic of him...

hehehe.. I have gud news.. my aunt and uncle is going to Langkawi... YES!!! Freedom.. I think la...k.. gtg.. bye SUCKERS!!!

I am...

i am a pet writing of my pain
i am a person livin the life of shame
i am your daughter hidin my deep depression
i am your sister makin a good impression
i am your friend actin like i am fine
i am a wisher wishin this life wasn't mine
i am a girl who thinks of suicide
i am a teenager pushin her tears aside
i am a student who doesn't have a clue
i am the girl sittin next to you
i am the one askin you to care
i am your best friend hopin you'll be there

My life..

I'm new.. The name Karissa.. 13.. SMK Seri Bintang Selatan... My life is a mess.. I'm NOT kidding..
When I was baby my father left me and my mum and took my brother.. I've never get the chance to even know my brother.. I don't bother seing my father..But I f**k**g want to meet my freaking brother for god's sake.. Too bad 4 me.. So as my life goes on... It's kinda o.k.. And bla bla bla bla..
Then... My mum meet this guy who is like really damn nice... and rich.. So.. they started dating.. bla bla bla.. I was happy 4 her.. And she is happy with him.. Then they got married.. I just say okay.. Not so much of a sacrifice... DUH.. But the thing is that..when I was 10.. I lost my mother.. She died because a stupid freakin' cancer... pfft.. yea .. why not??? WTF!! I hate it.. I hate it so much.. So now... I don't Have a father and mother.. And I love them truly.. But.. What to do.. What to do.. So now.. I'm staying with my aunt and uncle.. Don't really like them.. Oh shit!! I got to go.. they're freaking here.. To be continued...